batam w the gaga(s).

2012 has made its way till MAY already. and finally the first oversea trip arrived. 4 days away from work is ULTIMATE SHIOK. though it wasn’t somewhere far; just batam, but the people that you hang out with really makes a difference. just 7/13 of us this year as some couldn’t make it due to exams, rostering issue, financial constrains, but the 7 of us still enjoyed a hell lot.

tell me whose friend can get excited about a batam trip till she vomit and has stomach upset? only my friend does! HAHAHAHA.

on the ferry; getting all excited!

only true friends do this to you! WHAT A BULLY. hahaha.

@ the go kart area!

very happy with the miniature building viewing!

when the lift says, maximum 4 person allowed. but we squeezed in cause we wanna b tgt and got stared at by security guards; the silly things we do tgt.

the paintball game that we looked so forward to. so fun yet so scary!

this is the first time i had massage in a SUPER noisy environment, laughter through out the massage as if we are the only 7 person in that area. and silly friends that knock his head while massaging.

with my twin! the non stop eating and our favorite supermarket shopping!

I LOVE MY LADY GAGAs TO THE MAX. bcos of them, i believed that there can be true friends among colleagues and not just pure competition in job. <3

Demoralised. :(

Working as a nurse really has its way to enlighten me and yet at the same time brings me totally down. this time it’s the latter. For once, I think that humans are a bunch of plain arseholes! The working society is indeed a scary place. when bosses and seniors are around, they work n talk like they are the most hardworking creature on earth. But when that 2 important person that determines ur career is absent, a 360degree change is seen. 

Been left alone at work again today and I feel like shit. This is not what I see nursing as. I feel like I’m a cashier, I feel like im a nobody that just follow instructions, I feel like im so not safe as a nurse but my voicing out wont makes a difference. 

This is not what I want working as a nurse. Im totally cool with disappointments with patients. Cos that’s my job; I serve the patients. But what makes it worse is the management and the people u work with. I go to work early, but see myself hiding In the toilet; sitting on e toilet bowl – waiting for time to pass so that I go to work on time and not early to minimise my sorrows at work. I feel sad and depressing seeing myself do that. 

I cried in the train. I cried when I run, I cried when Im typing this, I cried when Im lying on my bed. So feel like resigning STAT. But has nursing turned like this everywhere? If so, this makes being a nurse not what I want anymore. Not like how it used to be. Happiness level in work dropped. Passion in work dropped double. I lost the passion; I work for the money. 

If this is nursing, I don’t wanna be a nurse anymore.  

Wonders.

I wonder if anyone looks at my Facebook like I look at theirs; not bcos I’m KPO. But purely bcos I admire them as a person or bcos I think they are pretty/handsome – for real. 

Shiok-a feeling~

I know this is kind of evil, but….

I feel damn freaking shiok n happy when I walk out of the clinic even tho it’s ultra busy; plainly bcos I took half day leave today.

Seeing people busy and I can go do what I want for the other half of the day; that feeling;indescribable.

<3

My awesome dad! :D

He went house opposite to top up his cash card so he can fetch me to work @ 7am on a saturday! Bcos fetching me to work has to go thru ERP charge of $2 but never did he complain. DD 

 

I HAVE AN AWESOME DAD. 

Ps: I want my future husband to make our kids feel what I’m feeling now. (:

daddy’s girl. <3

been wanting to blog about this.
but either i’ve got no time to.
or maybe i feel shy about it.

but,
tell me,
tell me how not to express my love for my daddy.

i have forgotten how morning crowds feel like.
i get to sleep comfortably with no worries while on my way to work.
for my daddy send me to work EVERYDAY without complaining.

he always remind me to take my breakfast.
he tells me to look out for cars when i cross the road.

IM A DADDY’S GIRL AND IM LOVING IT.

不知道从什么时候开始。。。

不知道从什么时候开始。。。

不知道从什么时候开始， 加班成了天天都在发生的事。
不知道从什么时候开始， 工作上只有同事，没有朋友。
不知道从什么时候开始， 当护士不再伟大。
不知道从什么时候开始， 我不再从工作上找到快乐。

不知道从什么时候开始， 周围的朋友一个个都很忙。
不知道从什么时候开始， 可以聊一聊的朋友都没了。
不知道从什么时候开始， 最要好的朋友变成了陌生人。
不知道从什么时候开始， 想找个逛街的半都很难。
不知道从什么时候开始， 感觉好孤单。

不知道从什么时候开始， 家里不再温暖。
不知道从什么时候开始， 家里沟通的次数少了很多。
不知道从什么时候开始， 周日在家，只有我一个。
不知道从什么时候开始， 和家人的感情慢慢的疏远了。
不知道从什么时候开始， 我完美的家已不完整。

不知道从什么时候开始， 连我最爱的舞蹈都提不起我的心情。
不知道从什么时候开始， 脑很乱,跟不上舞步。
不知道从什么时候开始， 集中不起精神跳舞。

不知道从什么时候开始， 必须习惯独立。
不知道从什么时候开始， 宁愿一个人在外出善善心。
不知道从什么时候开始,  不想在一个必须面对孤独的环境里徘徊。
不知道从什么时候开始， 满脑子里的生活影子不停的从博。
不知道从什么时候开始， 就算累也睡不着。
不知道从什么时候开始， 心情每天都很不好。

不知道从什么时候开始， 已经忘了发出内心笑容的感觉。
不知道从什么时候开始， 已经看不见世界的美丽。
不知道从什么时候开始， 觉得生活没了意义。
不知道从什么时候开始， 这一切把我的心弄得碎碎。

不知道从什么时候开始。。。